I just got back from North's graduation, where a boy I have been stuck on since December was graduating.
I had not been looking forward to this day, since I've started getting very emotional about graduating next year.
A couple weeks ago, I realized this may very well be the last time I'll ever see him, and I wasn't ready for that. I started panicking. I've never been one of those girls to get so wrapped around a guy, but let me tell you, this boy was perfect. loves his parents, loves his family, and puts God before everything else in his life.
So when we became friends in January and started talking about dating and relationships, I was over the moon. But he put on the breaks in mid February and stopped talking to me. I still to this day don't really know why it happened. I was devastated. I try to be understanding and open and think, well what if something is going on in his life and doesn't want to involve me? That helped a little, but I was still devastated for a long time.
And it didn't help we had Weight Training together everyday, for the rest of the year.
Anyway, It's been very hard getting over this boy. During graduation, it took me maybe 20 seconds took pick him out of the crowd. I mean I've really been stuck on this boy.
But God was with me, just like He was always with me when my emotions got to be too much to handle.
When he walked across that stage, walking into the next part of his life while simultaneously walking out of mine, I felt peace about this situation for the first time in a long time. Complete peace.
After graduation I saw him with his family outside, standing underneath a tree with the sun setting behind him, and I was at peace. That's how I'll always remember him, and I know one day he'll make some special girl very, very happy.
I am so thankful that I have a God I can run to when I'm scared or hurt, angry or confused, distraught or lost. Because when you give it all to God, I'm sure you can walk away with His Perfect Peace.
I feel renewed, overjoyed, thankful.... agh! SO many great emotions! :)
